17 posts tagged “work”

Friday, February 29, 2008
Current Music: Death Cab For Cutie - Title and Registration
Current Mood:  Doing lots of thinking

   I've been wanting to do this huge update for so long, but hadn't had the motivation until now.  There's so much stuck in my head, and I just wanted to get it all out.  But every time I've sat down at the keyboard, fired up my iPod, popped onto Vox, I just couldn't get anything going.  But watch out, because here it comes . . .

So, let's see . . . what's happened since the last time I posted . . . when was the last time I posted? 

(Now playing: Howie Day - Collide)

  Okay, so I posted a week or so ago, after going to Barnes and Noble with Heather.  But a lot's happened since then, so I have a lot to write about!

First off, as I mentioned in my last post, I bought an iPod on Friday!

Ipod

 
    That's what it looks like!  I really like the new menu and cover flow they've got going on with it.  Plus the fact that I actually need more than 80 gigs makes me really happy :-)  I was always disappointed that I only got a 30gig black one two years ago, so this was a great purchase. 

    I'm working overnight tonight, which will be the first extended use of the iPod so far.  Yay!!

    Then on Sunday I finally had enough money to buy a Wii when we actually got them in stock.  So yay for me and my wii:

Wii

  (Now playing: Nick Drake - One of These Things First)

  
      I've been very excited about buying a Wii for a long time.  Greg and other serious gamers think I should have bought a 360 or whatever, but honestly, I'm not all that into the hardcore gaming aspect of it.  I'm more trying to relive my childhood, and buying a Nintendo definitely does that.  I even was able to download Super Mario 2 and 3, as well as Sonic 3.  At five dollars each, they are well worth it! 

      So yeah, it's actually been helping me fill the time that I usually spend sitting in my room thinking.  At the same time, thoughts still pop into my head, of course.   I wouldn't be me without being depressed and sad, right?  And a bit angry, now, too. 

    Why am I angry?  Because of what happened at work yesterday.  I was told, in the middle of the salesfloor, that I am responsible for the electronics department not running well, because I'm friends with Greg.  Thanks Bob . . . it's good to know that that's what you think of me . . . I'm so bad that I'm bringing others down, instead of making Greg accountable for his own work.  Honestly, he's one of my best friends, but if he's messing up, it's his fault, not mine. 

(Now playing: The Shins - Girl On The Wing)
   So I decided to do an overnight today so I didn't have to deal with any of them.  And then I find out that Klaus is doing the overnight, too.  Blah.  The only positive that I can find is that I plan on getting A LOT done today, and maybe he'll see that and feel good about it.  Honestly, I really hope that happens,anyway.  We shall see tonight.

  I was going to live-blog during the night, but I can't edit my past posts on my phone, so I dunno if I wanna post a multitude of posts during the night.  We'll see how it's going, I guess.  Although I'm alone on this overnight, I'm quite okay with it because it'll help me get done with what I have to get done with.  Yay for me and my bright ideas.

   Other than that, I've been kinda blank lately.  I haven't been getting super-depressed lately, which is good.  I think it's because I have so much other shit on my mind that I'm not thinking about the loneliness.

(Now playing: Kimya Dawson - Tire Swing)

    I do get down, though.  I wish I was able to say that I'm over it and feeling good about things, because I'm not over it, and I still can't get past my pessimism right now.  So that sucks.  What's weird is that there have been times when I wanted to be around my friends 24/7, but recently I've been wanting to just stay here and stay away from everyone, which scares me even more than the opposite, because wanting to feel reclusive makes me think that my depression is getting worse instead of better. 

(Now playing: The Shins - Saint Simon)

    I see Greg a lot.  Like, a lot a lot.  Which I guess is okay, but I make his problems into my problems, and that's not good, and I know that.  And I sometimes want to take a step back but I'm so scared to make things worse for him.  

I see Heather once a week or so, outside of work, which is always a good time.   Heather and I always have fun when we're together, which is nice. 

I very, very rarely see Brittney anymore, either at work or outside of work, because her schedule is not anything like mine.  Doesn't seem to bother her much . . . if it does, she doesn't show it. 

I saw Melissa last night.  We did beer and appetizers at Applebees (which, by the way, now serves Guinness).  I try to see her at least once a week, but we stay in constant communication on blackberry messenger. 

I saw Andrew and Emily last night, too!!  We did Croxleys, which was awesome.  Hopefully it won't be more than a week or two before we do it again. 

James I see at work, but we haven't been hanging out at all outside of work, which is really weird.  Like, really weird. 

That's pretty much the state of my friendships at this point.  Some of them are good, some I'd like to work more on, honestly.  I still get so frustrated at certain people and friends.  It's unhealthy to keep it all inside, and I know that, but I could never actually have that conversation with them. 

My week's looking like this so far:

Friday: Overnight
Saturday: Sleep, then nothing planned
Sunday: Work, with fun people
Monday: Work, no plans
Tuesday: Work, Primary Night . . .watching results on CNN/MSNBC
Wednesday: School
Thursday: Work/School

  I dunno, I'm actually not too upset about it.  I don't even know if I want to make plans for tomorrow.  I'm gonna be sleeping for most of the day, and I probably should just relax the rest of the night, since I'm in at 5am the next day. 

   I dunno, I'm really looking forward to Tuesday night . . . the four primaries are very close between Hillary and Obama.  And Ohio and Texas are HUGE.  Hillary's pretty much gotta win both . . . and they're both very close in the polls in both states.  so it's gonna be an interesting night :-D  I'm very excited.  I really don't have much to look forward to until then, or afterwards, either. 

 (Now playing: The Mavericks - I Want To Know)

    But that's not a terrible thing, I think, either.  I've been going out a lot, and not watching what I eat, so I have to cut that back anyway.  And I should start refocusing on school a little harder. 

   I dunno, I don't know, i am unsure of what's going on in my head.  I haven't felt this blank in a long time.  Like I said, I'm not depressed at all, I have no emotions whatsoever  I don't like that feeling at all.

   I hope the overnight goes well.  I reallllly hope so.

   Okay, that's all for now.  I'll definitely be blogging from the Team Lead Office at some point tonight, if not multiple times. 

-Anthony

Today was a good day. 

Yeah, it really was. 

I mean, work went okay.  It wasn't too hard, and I worked with Greg and Heather, so I can't complain about that. 

School went well.  I like this class too, which is exciting.  And I knew one of the people in it from my autobiography class, so I talked to her after class. 

Then Heather and I had our Garden State night.  We had been planning this for a while now, because we both really, really love the movie.  We went to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner, which was awesome.  Then came back to my house and watched Garden State, which was a lotta fun because we were pointing out our favorite parts and favorite lines and stuff. 

And then afterwards, we talked a bit about stuff.  It was exactly what I needed . . . I needed a nice, stress-free day, hanging out with my friends, doing something fun. 

I'm just really glad about today.  That's all I wanted to say.

Yaaaaay!

-Anthony

      Hi everybody!  I'm sitting in the library, waiting for class to start, and I figured I'd update my blog.  I don't have all that much to say right now.  I'm super-tired, which really sucks.  I have class from 6:30-8:30, so I may get a bit of caffeine before going to it.  I'm waiting patiently on my laptop, waiting for a real computer to open up here so that I can print out two things that I need for class.  I don't think that there is anywhere else that I can print on campus, so this is pretty important.  I've been waiting an hour and no one has left yet!

     At least I've got my own computer, though, so that I don't get too bored.  Other than that, things are going pretty well.  Honestly, I have VERY little negativity in my life right now, which is unbelievably awesome.  Things are going pretty well with Brittney, which is good. It's Christmastime, which is freaking awesome, because I love the season.  I'm getting a lot of school stuff settled, which was my only real worry, and if it all works out as it looks like it's going to, then I will be able to enjoy the season even more, since I won't have anything to worry about. 

OOOOH, I just printed my stuff.

Today is a good day :-)

Tomorrow I close again at work, working on my development.  See, I close as a "team lead", which is an area manager.  I'm doing it so that they can see that I can handle it and when something opens up, they can consider me for the position.  Last week was my first week,and I did okay.  Tomorrow will go even better, since I know exactly what I did wrong and what I would do differently.   And Britt closes tomorrow, which is always nice. 

Then class wednesday, hanging out with Andrew on Thursday, work Friday, then Greg's having a party Friday night.  Can't complain about that week, eh?  And it's only threeeeee weeks till Christmas!!! 

I'm so excited, I can't even tell you. 

Ho ho ho!!!

-Anthony

Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Current Music: Jack Johnson - If I Could

   So, just a quick update while I wait for my laundry to get done so I can get ready to go to work.  I'm doing pretty well.  I'm working on straightening out the school thing, so hopefully by next week I'll have it taken care of (fingers crossed, everybody keep me in your thoughts).

Work has been stressful as hell, but I've taken on a new approach where I just don't care about what happens anymore, and it's been working for the past few days.  There are honestly a lot of politics and behind the scenes stuff there that I never thought I'd get mixed up in, but it's just annoying and weird and tough to deal with. 

(Now playing: The Shins - Kissing The Lipless)

   Yeah, I mean, I really don't want any negativity in my life anymore.  Part of the reason I decided to stop caring so much at work is that it's not worth the negative feelings I get all the time because of it.  I mean, this is actually a very positive and happy time for me right now, and I want to actually enjoy it.  AND it's the holidays, so I should really be enjoying that, too. 

   I had sooooo much fun last night.  Brittney and I were gonna go to the movies at like 8:30, but Greg and Chelsea wanted to join us, but couldn't until later.  So we decided to meet up at Starbucks, but never ended up going in, just driving around aimlessly, listening to music, and talking.  It was so much fun.  Chelsea finally called us around 11 and said she could come over and hang out with Greg, so we went to Brittney's house and played Scattergories and Trivial Purusit and had an awesomely fun night.  Like seriously, awesomely fun.  It was nice to see her outside of work . . . we have both been working so much that this was the first time in a week that we were able to hang out outside of work.

(Now playing: Old 97s - El Paso)

   I haven't hung out with Christine and Melissa in a long time . . .again, working at Target kills social lives.  But we all happen to be off on Thursday, so I believe we're all gonna go to lunch and like Starbucks and hang out and chat . . . because Christine has hours worth of stuff she needs advice with and stuff . . . and Melissa and I probably have stuff to talk about, too.  Then after that I'm gonna see Andrew.  Then I'm probably gonna go to work at night, which will be good because I'll see Brittney there and a few other fun people. 

  Tomorrow I am going to a wake.  My friend Matt's mother passed away.  I worked directly with him all summer.  I feel so terrible about it.  So Brittney, Greg, Chelsea, Christine and I are going to go to the wake tomorrow night and be there for him. 

   So, other than that, I guess I don't have much going on with me.  But I guess that is a lot going on, really. 

(Now playing: Jack Johnson - Wasting Time)

   I mean, I have a lot more going on than I did all year, hehe.  And it's the holidays, which I can't tell you how excited I am.  I just bought 4 Christmas CDs yesterday.  I am so excited about listening to them all season.  And it's really cool to be at the beginning of a new relationship at this time of the year . ..  kinda makes everything doubly merry and cheerful :-) 

Yaaaaaaaay!!! 

More soon, I hope!

-Anthony

Saturday, August 11, 2007
Current Music: Dave Matthews Band - Hunger For The Great Light
Current Mood: tired and okay

So, I was gonna go to sleep, but first I wanted to post a bit.  Things are going pretty well right now.  I was kinda down the other day, because I had this dream.  I dreamed that I met this girl who was into dmb, and we decided to go on a date.  The dream was pretty much my first date with this girl.  It went really well, too!  We hit it off right away.  And when I woke up, I was actually feeling really good.  I was content and happy, because I had found someone!  Then I snapped out of it and realized that I had no one.  It was a tough morning.

(Now playing: Dave Matthews Band - Spotlight)

 I do have friends, though.  And I'm so happy about it.  I've been going to the gym with Christine and Melissa.  It's so nice to get back to the gym, honestly.  I had stopped going because I was so tired after work, and on my days off I was busy.  But now that I'm going with others, I have more motivation.  Plus, we get along well together, so it's nice to get together chat about Target (since we all work there), and just have a good time together.  It's actually nice to just get out of the house sometimes.  James has been available to hang out less and less lately, and Pete has been MIA.  Andrew and I will be hanging out regularly again once school starts, since I'm gonna head up to Stony Brook during one of his long breaks on Tuesdays and/or Thursdays.  Honestly, the less time I'm sitting here on the computer listening to depressing music or watching depressing television shows or movies the better.

I popped into work today for a few hours to make up some time that I missed when I was off on Monday.  I used the time to completely clean and reorganize my signing area.  It's now set up exactly the way I want it to be, which I'm thankful for. 

(Now playing: The Postal Service - Sleeping In)

 I think that I've actually posted this song before.  I love it.  I don't know what it about it, but it is just an amazing song.  I've been thinking a lot about Rocio and the past lately.  Not in a depressing way or anything.  Just about certain things that happened a while back. 

  Anyway, I'm gonna go to sleep.  Enjoy this song:

03 - Sleeping In

The Postal Service

-Anthony

So, before I do anything else, I want to post an entry.  It's been two months since I've felt depressed.  I feel really down right now, though.  It's not depression, I don't think.  I'll be honest with you, I don't know why this feeling hit me.  Today has been a rough, emotional day for me.  And right now I'm listening to this, which I shouldn't be:

1-04 Some Devil

Dave Matthews

Thursday, July 26, 2007
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Shakira (featuring Wyclef) - Hips Don't Lie

  I can't STAND how happy this song makes me.  Hehehe.  I know, I'm such a dork, but this is such a very fun song, honestly.  I actually dropped the 99 cents and bought it on iTunes!  Shakira reminds me of summer 2002, right before I started to get to know Rocio, and also as we first started chatting.  She was just becoming popular.  And I liked her back then, too! 

So, it's Thursday night and I have a nice three day weekend ahead of me that I am actually VERY excited about!  Although my new job is Monday through Friday, I did have to work this past Sunday for my old job.  So, since I'm not allowed to go over 40 hours, I had to only work Monday through Thursday, which I am NOT upset about in the least!

My parents are going to Foxwoods tomorrow, which means that I actually have the day to myself.  I do, however, have a LOT of errands to run!  I have to go buy some new clothes (my clothes are TOO big for me, now!).  I have to go to the bank, I have to get a haircut, I have to do a bit of grocery shopping, and I have to go baby shopping for my friend Lenae! 

  You see, I have worked with Lenae for a long time now.  She started back when I first was at my Target, before I moved to South Dakota.  When I moved back, she was getting ready to switch to overnights, but I still saw her every day since I started working at 6.  Anyway, Lenae is pregnant, and she's moving down to North Carolina to be near the rest of her family.  She's due in just 8 weeks or so.

ANYWAY, Christine, my old team lead (in-stock team manager) is having a get-together at her house on Sunday for Lenae, since Lenae leaves on Monday.  And although Target has a rule about team leads fraternizing with Level Ones (which I used to be), since I'm not a specialist (Level Two), she invited me!  It's a bunch of us from work, plus Lenae's mom and sister.  It's gonna be so fun, and it's so awesome to be invited, ya know?

  So, tomorrow I'm gonna go get her a present from her registry. 

  I'm telling you, my life is starting to feel really good again.  Like, I haven't felt this good since last June, before the break-up!  Once I figured out my school stuff, I knew things would feel better.  But then the promotion just made things really great.  It's gotten to the point where I don't really even feel bad about not having anyone to share my life with at this moment.  I mean, sure I'd love to find someone.  But I don't get depressed about it, which is wonderful! 

  Rocio just IMd me.  I haven't talked to her since the beginning of June or so.  So, nearly two months.  But I was actually thinking about e-mailing her, seeing how things are going anyway.  So we chatted, and it went just fine.  You see, I needed to get to this kinda point in my life where I'm feeling good.  I had to get my life settled and together before I could talk to her, ya know?  But yeah, I feel great about things, so it worked out well.

:-D

Anyway, although I worked at 6 this morning and didn't sleep a lot last night, I don't know if I'll get to bed early tonight.  I mean, I want to, but whenever I'm excited about something going on the next day, it's hard for me to fall asleep! 

  I'll post another time about my new job.  Right now I'm thirsty, so I think I'm gonna go made some sugar-free Kool-Aid!

-Anthony

I made a playlist of 20 Johnny Cash songs in iTunes.  I'm listening to it now, and was in the mood to post an update, since it's been a few days and big things can happen in a few days, eh?

First off, let's just say that "Flesh and Blood" is a beautiful song, but it's the kinda song that feels better to listen to when you're with someone. 

Okay, so as I posted before, I will be the new signing specialist at my Target.  This is big for me, and I'm really excited about it.  I'll be finishing up my week on the in-stock team as I was regularly scheduled for it.  So tomorrow will be my last day with Ryan, Matt, and Brian, and then I'll finish out by working the weekend with the in-stock team lead, Andrew.  He's our manager.  Then I'll start signing on Monday.  Gina, the girl who does it now, will be pretty much training me, and then we'll be working together for a while.  I mean, she can't lift anything over ten pounds, and she can't climb ladders, due to her pregnancy, so she'll pretty much be setting stuff up and having me do it, hehe.  But it'll be good to learn that way instead of some sort of training video or something! 

So, I'll be posting about how it's going next week! 

So, yesterday I decided that I'll be attending Adelphi University for my Masters.  The people there were so nice.  The person from the school of education that I met was extremely helpful.  He gave me all the information I need and made it clear that I'd be getting in once my application was all received, which is awesome.  It's a relief, really.  And I'm excited about starting a new school.  Its a beautiful campus.  The school was founded in 1896 in Brooklyn, and then moved in 1912 to its current location in Garden City, which is about 30 miles from here.  It's a bit of a drive, but it's going west, so it won't be too bad at the time I'll be going.  See, coming east, from NYC, the traffic at rush hour (3-7pm) is terrible.  But most people live east of where they work, so I'll be heading west, so the traffic won't be nearly as bad.

So, I'll post more about that, too, when I get everything set up. I'll be getting an ID card, e-mail address, and all that fun stuff.  And books.  And everything. OOooooh, I am excited :-D

Ya know, this has been probably the best week I've had in the past year.  Two pieces of good news, and no bad news or anything.  But that hasn't stopped me from having these weird dreams about Rocio and living in South Dakota, and things being much different. I guess my mind just won't let me be 100% happy.  I'm not down or anything, but those thought still creep into my mind, even if it is subconsciously.  Oh well.  I'm still doing well :-)

Okay, it's nearly bedtime.  Although I'll be working at 7:30 for a while when I start my new job, right now I'm still due in at 6 for the rest of the week!

-Anthony

I'll tell you, this summer has been very, very good to me.  I'm about ten weeks into my sixteen week break, and I really can't complain.  I mean, there have been a few bumps in the road, of course.  The whole not getting into Stony Brook thing was tough.  But honestly, that old saying that when one door closes, another opens is very true.  I mean, I've been looking at other schools, and I really like what I've been seeing.  I really needed a change.  I mean, it'd be nice to be at Stony Brook because Andrew is there, but having gone there for the equivalent of five years between undergrad and this past semester, I would like to see what it's like somewhere else.  I loved USD, and I do hope to love where I go next . . .which'll probably be Adelphi. 

  Yep, I'm meeting with people at C.W. Post and Adelphi on Wednesday.  Post at 11am, Adelphi at 6pm.  So I'll kill the hours in between at the Roosevelt Field mall and the movies and whatnot.  I'll get by :-)  And hopefully by the end of that, I'll know what's going to be going on for the fall more definitely.  Right now I'm leaning towards Adelphi, but we'll see what happens on Wednesday. 

Other than that, things have still been going great.  Especially work.  I've always loved working at Target, but ever since Bob asked me to join the in-stock team, I've been feeling even better about things.  In fact, this hasn't been officially announced yet at work, but I'll post it here.  I got a promotion today!  Bob (he's my boss . . . the number two guy in the store) took me aside and asked me if I'd be interested in being the signing specialist.  The way target works for hourly people (non-executive store managers) is by levels.

Level One: what I've been for the past three years.  cashier, salesfloor, backroom, etc.
Level Two: Specialist - What I'm going to be now. It's a step up, but not quite a manager
Level Three: Team Leader (aka manager for certain area)

  So yeah, I'll be a level two.  Right now it's just a temporary thing because our signing specialist is pregnant.  But she's really early on, less than two months along, and she already has a note from her doctor that says she can't do her job, since there's a lot of lifting and climbing.  So, for at least the next seven months, plus however long she's gone for maternity leave I'll be the specialist.  And he made it seem like it might not be as temporary as it may seem. 

So that's really exciting.  I'll get a raise, too!  So, yeah.  I feel really good about things right now, honestly :-)

And James and I are seeing DMB in just over two weeks!

And then again in September in Atlanta, remember!?!?

YAY!!!

Okay, more later!

-Anthony

   I love having two days off in a row, I really do.  The main problem I have is that I'm never tired on Thursday night, and that makes it hard for me to wake up on Friday morning for the start of my work week.  I mean, I didn't wake up late or anything.  On a normal day, I wake up at 5:15 am.  Yesterday morning I woke up at 6:30, and today I woke up at 7:30.  Still much earlier than I would have before I started this job.  But yeah, I hope I get tired soon!

Plus, the Mets are in extra innings.  So, yeah, I'm trying, but we'll see how well I do, sleepwise.

I may be posting more later tonight.  If not, definitely tomorrow.

So much to say . . . . . .

-Anthony