9 posts tagged “school”
Friday, February 29, 2008
Current Music: Death Cab For Cutie - Title and Registration
Current Mood: Doing lots of thinking
I've been wanting to do this huge update for so long, but hadn't had the motivation until now. There's so much stuck in my head, and I just wanted to get it all out. But every time I've sat down at the keyboard, fired up my iPod, popped onto Vox, I just couldn't get anything going. But watch out, because here it comes . . .
So, let's see . . . what's happened since the last time I posted . . . when was the last time I posted?
(Now playing: Howie Day - Collide)
Okay, so I posted a week or so ago, after going to Barnes and Noble with Heather. But a lot's happened since then, so I have a lot to write about!
First off, as I mentioned in my last post, I bought an iPod on Friday!
That's what it looks like! I really like the new menu and cover flow they've got going on with it. Plus the fact that I actually need more than 80 gigs makes me really happy :-) I was always disappointed that I only got a 30gig black one two years ago, so this was a great purchase.
I'm working overnight tonight, which will be the first extended use of the iPod so far. Yay!!
Then on Sunday I finally had enough money to buy a Wii when we actually got them in stock. So yay for me and my wii:
(Now playing: Nick Drake - One of These Things First)
I've been very excited about buying a Wii for a long time. Greg and other serious gamers think I should have bought a 360 or whatever, but honestly, I'm not all that into the hardcore gaming aspect of it. I'm more trying to relive my childhood, and buying a Nintendo definitely does that. I even was able to download Super Mario 2 and 3, as well as Sonic 3. At five dollars each, they are well worth it!
So yeah, it's actually been helping me fill the time that I usually spend sitting in my room thinking. At the same time, thoughts still pop into my head, of course. I wouldn't be me without being depressed and sad, right? And a bit angry, now, too.
Why am I angry? Because of what happened at work yesterday. I was told, in the middle of the salesfloor, that I am responsible for the electronics department not running well, because I'm friends with Greg. Thanks Bob . . . it's good to know that that's what you think of me . . . I'm so bad that I'm bringing others down, instead of making Greg accountable for his own work. Honestly, he's one of my best friends, but if he's messing up, it's his fault, not mine.
(Now playing: The Shins - Girl On The Wing)
So I decided to do an overnight today so I didn't have to deal with any of them. And then I find out that Klaus is doing the overnight, too. Blah. The only positive that I can find is that I plan on getting A LOT done today, and maybe he'll see that and feel good about it. Honestly, I really hope that happens,anyway. We shall see tonight.
I was going to live-blog during the night, but I can't edit my past posts on my phone, so I dunno if I wanna post a multitude of posts during the night. We'll see how it's going, I guess. Although I'm alone on this overnight, I'm quite okay with it because it'll help me get done with what I have to get done with. Yay for me and my bright ideas.
Other than that, I've been kinda blank lately. I haven't been getting super-depressed lately, which is good. I think it's because I have so much other shit on my mind that I'm not thinking about the loneliness.
(Now playing: Kimya Dawson - Tire Swing)
I do get down, though. I wish I was able to say that I'm over it and feeling good about things, because I'm not over it, and I still can't get past my pessimism right now. So that sucks. What's weird is that there have been times when I wanted to be around my friends 24/7, but recently I've been wanting to just stay here and stay away from everyone, which scares me even more than the opposite, because wanting to feel reclusive makes me think that my depression is getting worse instead of better.
(Now playing: The Shins - Saint Simon)
I see Greg a lot. Like, a lot a lot. Which I guess is okay, but I make his problems into my problems, and that's not good, and I know that. And I sometimes want to take a step back but I'm so scared to make things worse for him.
I see Heather once a week or so, outside of work, which is always a good time. Heather and I always have fun when we're together, which is nice.
I very, very rarely see Brittney anymore, either at work or outside of work, because her schedule is not anything like mine. Doesn't seem to bother her much . . . if it does, she doesn't show it.
I saw Melissa last night. We did beer and appetizers at Applebees (which, by the way, now serves Guinness). I try to see her at least once a week, but we stay in constant communication on blackberry messenger.
I saw Andrew and Emily last night, too!! We did Croxleys, which was awesome. Hopefully it won't be more than a week or two before we do it again.
James I see at work, but we haven't been hanging out at all outside of work, which is really weird. Like, really weird.
That's pretty much the state of my friendships at this point. Some of them are good, some I'd like to work more on, honestly. I still get so frustrated at certain people and friends. It's unhealthy to keep it all inside, and I know that, but I could never actually have that conversation with them.
My week's looking like this so far:
Friday: Overnight
Saturday: Sleep, then nothing planned
Sunday: Work, with fun people
Monday: Work, no plans
Tuesday: Work, Primary Night . . .watching results on CNN/MSNBC
Wednesday: School
Thursday: Work/School
I dunno, I'm actually not too upset about it. I don't even know if I want to make plans for tomorrow. I'm gonna be sleeping for most of the day, and I probably should just relax the rest of the night, since I'm in at 5am the next day.
I dunno, I'm really looking forward to Tuesday night . . . the four primaries are very close between Hillary and Obama. And Ohio and Texas are HUGE. Hillary's pretty much gotta win both . . . and they're both very close in the polls in both states. so it's gonna be an interesting night :-D I'm very excited. I really don't have much to look forward to until then, or afterwards, either.
(Now playing: The Mavericks - I Want To Know)
But that's not a terrible thing, I think, either. I've been going out a lot, and not watching what I eat, so I have to cut that back anyway. And I should start refocusing on school a little harder.
I dunno, I don't know, i am unsure of what's going on in my head. I haven't felt this blank in a long time. Like I said, I'm not depressed at all, I have no emotions whatsoever I don't like that feeling at all.
I hope the overnight goes well. I reallllly hope so.
Okay, that's all for now. I'll definitely be blogging from the Team Lead Office at some point tonight, if not multiple times.
-Anthony
Today was a good day.
Yeah, it really was.
I mean, work went okay. It wasn't too hard, and I worked with Greg and Heather, so I can't complain about that.
School went well. I like this class too, which is exciting. And I knew one of the people in it from my autobiography class, so I talked to her after class.
Then Heather and I had our Garden State night. We had been planning this for a while now, because we both really, really love the movie. We went to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner, which was awesome. Then came back to my house and watched Garden State, which was a lotta fun because we were pointing out our favorite parts and favorite lines and stuff.
And then afterwards, we talked a bit about stuff. It was exactly what I needed . . . I needed a nice, stress-free day, hanging out with my friends, doing something fun.
I'm just really glad about today. That's all I wanted to say.
Yaaaaay!
-Anthony
Hi everybody! I'm sitting in the library, waiting for class to start, and I figured I'd update my blog. I don't have all that much to say right now. I'm super-tired, which really sucks. I have class from 6:30-8:30, so I may get a bit of caffeine before going to it. I'm waiting patiently on my laptop, waiting for a real computer to open up here so that I can print out two things that I need for class. I don't think that there is anywhere else that I can print on campus, so this is pretty important. I've been waiting an hour and no one has left yet!
At least I've got my own computer, though, so that I don't get too bored. Other than that, things are going pretty well. Honestly, I have VERY little negativity in my life right now, which is unbelievably awesome. Things are going pretty well with Brittney, which is good. It's Christmastime, which is freaking awesome, because I love the season. I'm getting a lot of school stuff settled, which was my only real worry, and if it all works out as it looks like it's going to, then I will be able to enjoy the season even more, since I won't have anything to worry about.
OOOOH, I just printed my stuff.
Today is a good day :-)
Tomorrow I close again at work, working on my development. See, I close as a "team lead", which is an area manager. I'm doing it so that they can see that I can handle it and when something opens up, they can consider me for the position. Last week was my first week,and I did okay. Tomorrow will go even better, since I know exactly what I did wrong and what I would do differently. And Britt closes tomorrow, which is always nice.
Then class wednesday, hanging out with Andrew on Thursday, work Friday, then Greg's having a party Friday night. Can't complain about that week, eh? And it's only threeeeee weeks till Christmas!!!
I'm so excited, I can't even tell you.
Ho ho ho!!!
-Anthony
I made a playlist of 20 Johnny Cash songs in iTunes. I'm listening to it now, and was in the mood to post an update, since it's been a few days and big things can happen in a few days, eh?
First off, let's just say that "Flesh and Blood" is a beautiful song, but it's the kinda song that feels better to listen to when you're with someone.
Okay, so as I posted before, I will be the new signing specialist at my Target. This is big for me, and I'm really excited about it. I'll be finishing up my week on the in-stock team as I was regularly scheduled for it. So tomorrow will be my last day with Ryan, Matt, and Brian, and then I'll finish out by working the weekend with the in-stock team lead, Andrew. He's our manager. Then I'll start signing on Monday. Gina, the girl who does it now, will be pretty much training me, and then we'll be working together for a while. I mean, she can't lift anything over ten pounds, and she can't climb ladders, due to her pregnancy, so she'll pretty much be setting stuff up and having me do it, hehe. But it'll be good to learn that way instead of some sort of training video or something!
So, I'll be posting about how it's going next week!
So, yesterday I decided that I'll be attending Adelphi University for my Masters. The people there were so nice. The person from the school of education that I met was extremely helpful. He gave me all the information I need and made it clear that I'd be getting in once my application was all received, which is awesome. It's a relief, really. And I'm excited about starting a new school. Its a beautiful campus. The school was founded in 1896 in Brooklyn, and then moved in 1912 to its current location in Garden City, which is about 30 miles from here. It's a bit of a drive, but it's going west, so it won't be too bad at the time I'll be going. See, coming east, from NYC, the traffic at rush hour (3-7pm) is terrible. But most people live east of where they work, so I'll be heading west, so the traffic won't be nearly as bad.
So, I'll post more about that, too, when I get everything set up. I'll be getting an ID card, e-mail address, and all that fun stuff. And books. And everything. OOooooh, I am excited :-D
Ya know, this has been probably the best week I've had in the past year. Two pieces of good news, and no bad news or anything. But that hasn't stopped me from having these weird dreams about Rocio and living in South Dakota, and things being much different. I guess my mind just won't let me be 100% happy. I'm not down or anything, but those thought still creep into my mind, even if it is subconsciously. Oh well. I'm still doing well :-)
Okay, it's nearly bedtime. Although I'll be working at 7:30 for a while when I start my new job, right now I'm still due in at 6 for the rest of the week!
-Anthony
Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
And I'll check my machine, there's sure to be that call
It's gonna happen soon, soon, soon
It's just that times are lean
-Colin Hay - Waiting For My Real Life To Begin
I know that I have mentioned this song at quite a few times throughout the course of my blogging. But right now I have these five lines running through my head. Any minute now. That's what I feel. I really do. Understand, I'm not down or anything. Well, maybe that's a lie. I'm kinda down, but not super-down. Not at the moment.
Here's what's going on with me, since it's been 11 days since I've posted anything substantial.
- I will be leaving for work soon. Normal 2-close Sunday shift.
- My parents are going to Florida for a week, from tomorrow through Sunday. It will be nice to have some time to myself, to be honest. I have no party-type plans, anyone who knows me knows that that's not my style. But I am looking forward to the week.
- I have been super-duper into dmb lately. As I've mentioned in the past, I've been a dmb fanatic for nine years, and right now I'm as into them as I was during the my dmb obsessed years of 1999, 2000, 2001, and 2002. Yay!
I have been trying to read for my Monday class this weekend, so I wouldn't have too much to do tomorrow. So far I've read 35 of the 115 pages in the book we're reading. I'm bringing the book with me to work again, since I got most of that done yesterday on my breaks. I hope to get through chapter 1 by the time today is over, which will get me to page 60. I have to read this slowly, since it's for historiography, the hard class. So a modest 35 page goal should be just fine. That will mean that I have to read 55 pages between 10 and 3 tomorrow. I think I can do that. That's ten pages an hour, just about. Seriously, I can do that :-)
Then bang out a 1-2 page response paper. Then bring my parents to the airport at 4, go to class, and when I get out of class, I'm chilling with Andrew for a while. And that will be nice :-)
So, my friends, I do have to start getting ready for work. I do think that work will be okay tonight. At least until we close. Then, we'll see. LOD Bob is closing tonight, which is awesome, because he's so nice. I believe that I'm alone from 8:30 on. I hope we're not there til 11:50 like we were last Sunday. But then again, I envision a lot of people calling in "sick" today, the day after St. Patrick's day and all.
Okay. That's enough from me. More soon. I'm going to start blogging regularly again, not just QoTD and Vox Hunt, although you know Iove those, especially music and video Vox Hunts. I don't have a digital camera yet, so the picture ones are kinda tough for me to do.
More soon!
-Anthony
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
Current Music: Smashmouth - Why Can't We Be Friends?
Current Mood: unknown
I'm sitting here in the SINC site in the Union. If you ever read my LiveJournal back in 2004ish, I started a lot of blogs from SINC site. But for you voxers, SINC stands for Stony Brook INstructional Computing. SINC Sites are computer labs. I used to post a lot from the one in the Social and Behavioral Science building. Today, though, I'm in the Stony Brook Union. The Union is a kinda depressing place. You see, in the 1960s and 70s and even 80s it was the center of activity here on campus. Everyone hung out at the Union. Then Shirley Strum Kenny took over as president and decided to invigorate the main academic mall and renovate the Student Activity Center (SAC). Now the SAC as well as the recently completed Charles B. Wang Asian-American Center (Wang Center for short) are the centers of activity. The Union is kinda old looking, and it lacks a lot of charm. The SINC site, however, is quiet. And it has a table with outlets so that you can plug your laptop in and work for as long as you want. And that makes me smile. The only negative of being down here in the basement of the Union where the SINC site is is that I don't get any cell phone reception at all. So if anyone is trying to contact me, they can't!
(Now Playing: Dave Matthews - So Damn Lucky)
Anyway, I came here to work on my Human Development paper that I have due tomorrow night. I had done some research, gathering the three articles that I needed to read and write about. Tonight I decided to read them. And possibly write about them. Well, a few hours in the SINC site later, I am finished reading them. They were very statistical articles about Middle Schools and student's motivations. They included a lot of techno-babble that I really didn't understand. But I got the basic idea of the articles. Now I need to write a 3-4 page pater that:
a) includes a reaction the the information I have accumulated.
b) includes a discussion of the impact on teens.
That is from the syllabus. That will not be hard to do at all. After having read already, I anticipate banging this paper out in 30-45 minutes. When? I'm not sure. I was supposed to meet up with Andrew tonight in about an hour, but he's not feeling well. I can do it now, and try to get it done. I do need to get a drink, though. Something with caffeine, or at the very least, some sugar. I feel very lethargic right now. Kinda strange. I may just Stop at 8:05, head upstairs, get the drink that I was gonna get with Andrew (at the bar), and sit there and write the paper. They have wireless access, and it's never really busy.
(Now Playing: The Shins - Kissing The Lipless)
I dunno. I get kinda sad because I miss a lot of stuff from South Dakota. I say that a lot, I know. And honestly, I'm dwelling on this stuff WAY, WAY too much. I realize that. But I dunno, I just feel like I'm very empty right now. I can honestly say that I don't feel like I'm "home". I didn't feel like I was "home" out in South Dakota anymore either, after I moved into the dorms. So really, what is home? That's what I'm really, really struggling with right now.
Also, I've been thinking a lot about death. I worry sometimes. I worry about the possibility that I could get some sort of terrible disease, especially cancer. Anyone can get cancer, ya know? Who's to say I won't? And I worry that I wouldn't handle cancer very well. I'm a very weak-willed person. I can't even imagine chemotherapy. Or being in hospitals. Or IVs. Or any of that sick people stuff.
(Now Playing: Lilo & Stitch - Hawaiian Roller Coaster Ride)
Well, this song makes me much happier. I don't know what it is about this song, but if you know it, you'd understand why it just makes me smile. :-)
I am looking very forward to the summer, by the way. Spending time with my family and friends, hopefully working more than I am now, and watching the mets :-) I can't take any classes until the Fall after this semester, so I'll definitely take full advantage of the 12 or so weeks off. Like I said, I do hope to work a lot more, in order to make a little bit of money, ya know? That'd be really good. I don't have a lot of money. At all. What's worse is that there was a payroll error, and now I have to wait two more weeks to get paid for the past two sundays! Which means a big check in two weeks, but an absolutely TINY check on Friday. ugh.
(Now playing: John Lennon - Imagine)
I love this song. Always have. I used to be OBSESSED with The Beatles back from seventh through tenth grades. Four full years. Loved them. Listened to them all the time. Read about them. Wore Beatles shirts. Wore John Lennon glasses. Seriously.
Then I found Dave Matthews Band and I really just sorta pushed The Beatles aside for the past nine years or so. That's mean of me!
Anyway, They're really good.
In case you've never heard of them :)
(Now Playing: The Postal Service - Nothing Better)
I think I'm gonna stop blogging for now. No reason in particular. I just am going to try to do 20-30 minutes of work.
:-)
More soon, though. I promise you that.
-Anthony
So, I'm about to head out to Round 2 of Patrick's 5th Birthday Celebration! Round 1 was at Wood kingdom, which has a great indoor play area for the kids, and a great host, and the kids loved it. Now I'm gonna head over to my brother's house where just the family is gonna be (pretty much just my family and Lori's family, no extended stuff :) ). It's been an okay day so far, which is good. I have been reading for class for tomorrow. My plan was to read Chapter 1 (50 pages) before the party, Chapter 2 (40 pages), after the party, before I fall asleep, and Chapter 3 (35 pages), in the morning tomorrow. I completed Chapter 1 as planned. So between tonight and tomorrow, it's really not that much.
NOW, the only real problem is that I have no idea WHAT I've read, since it is so hard to understand historiography. I really hate that I don't get it. I've never experienced that before. I just read, and re-read the same paragraph, and am stunned at my stupidity. But at least almost everyone else in the class feels the same way. So that's good.
Well, I may as well go now. I am taking my own car (my parents are already there), so that I can leave when I need to, so that I can come home and read. I also have to stop at Target to buy some contact lens solution, and I believe I'll be stopping at Borders to pick up a book I've been interested in buying for a while now, using a gift card that I have. We'll see. If I do get it, I'll let y'all know what it is :-)
More soon.
Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalalalalal
-Antho
My last few entries to my Vox have been surveys and QotDs, which is okay, but I haven't really said much of how I'm doing or what is going on with me. So, here's a quick update for y'all.
It's 1:10pm on Sunday, January 21, 2007. I work at 2, but I want to get there a few minutes early so that I can try to exchange my copy of The Last Kiss, which skips pretty badly for a while, for a working copy of it. Then, I'm working from 2 until closeish. We close at 9. I am really hoping that we get out of there by 10, but I'm not gonna get my hopes up. I will work as hard as I can to make sure that the service desk does not get behind on stuff, like we have been the last few Sundays. A lot of it had to do with the fact that we're extremely short on hours right now, so I've been basically alone for the past few Sundays. Not good!
So, we'll see how it all goes. Once I'm done with that, I don't work for a whole week. This is bad for my bank account, but good for me, since I have class all week, and I need to make sure that I'm in the right classes before I change my availability. You know how it goes. I don't want to get there and be told that I need to take some day class, and mess up my whole week's schedule because of that.
I'm also excited because I get to hang out with Andrew tomorrow and (hopefully) watch all of the episodes of The Office that he's missed since school ended for the Winter.
Anyway, that's all I'm gonna post about now. No in depth stuff, I know. But I'll probably get to that either today or tomorrow. I have a lot to write about, but I just can't right now. I want to just stay calm, relaxed, and get ready for my day at work.
More soon :-)
-Anthony
Wednesday, October 11, 2006 (officially, although I still feel like it's Tuesday because I haven't slept yet)
Current Music: Dave Matthews Band - Two Step (album version)
Current Mood: kinda tired
Soooooooooo, here it is, late Tuesday. It's not too late, less than an hour after midnight on Wednesday, so I'm stil considering it pretty much Tuesday. I know, doesn't really matter to many, but I like to make sure that my Vox book keeping is solid.
So, here I am, posting as I lay in bed, relaxed and feeling good. Had a test tonight, did pretty well, I think. Have a few classes tomorrow, but I got my homework done for them already, so I feel good about that, too. Tomorrow night is Game 1 of the National League Championship Series (NLCS), Mets vs. Cardinals. Should be a very interesting series. I have faith in the Mets, but I also am not going as far as to say they'll win or lose. Anything can happen in this series. We'll see. At least it'll be good baseball.
I feel good. I don't know if that matters, but I do feel good right now. My shoulder is itchy, but I don't think there's any real reason for that. As far as I know, things in my life are going okay. I am on a downswing of my emotional biorhythm, according to Google, but I don't feel that. I feel very strong at this point, and I feel like I am doing great emotionally. So I'll just enjoy myself, and I hope that things go okay this week and weekend. I think they well.
I guess I really don't have much to post about today. I am kinda boring, since nothing has happened today. Just counseling, which went very well, and a test.
Well, how about some music, since Two Step just ended:
(Now playing: Buddy Holly - It Don't Matter Anymore)
This song is uploaded to my Vox, and I posted about it once. It is so sad that this song is pretty much how I am going to feel about Rocio. It's just about how I did everything I could, I'm done trying, I cried and wasted my tears over the breakup, and that's it. I'll find someone new, and she won't be so important to me anymore. And it's not a malicious song or anything. It's not mean. It's just pretty much saying, I'm done being sad, and I'm moving on. So yeah. I like Buddy Holly, so this song works well for me. :-)
(Now playing: Barenaked Ladies - Brian Wilson)
I liked this song before I really got into the Beach Boys, so I didn't really understand the references (sandbox in the living room, Dr. Landy, Smiley Smile, Fun Fun Fun). But I do like the song for other reasons. It is catchy, and it reminds me of such a simpler time. I mean, doens't everything?! But really, it's a great song. Reminds me of Adam Gold, actually. I don't think that Adam even liked BNL, and I'm really not sure why this song reminds me of him. Adam Gold was a friend of mine from 11th and 12th grades. Very good guy, big dmb fan, too :-) Hmm. I need to figure out why this song reminds me of him. Maybe that'll come to me eventually.
(now playing: Dave Matthews Band - Song That Jane Likes)
This song will always remind me of July 4, 2001. On that day I went into the city with my whole family. We had dinner at Carmines and we got stuck in traffic since we were diverted on the way home because of the Macy's Fireworks. Anyway, I remember looking out the window at the city, listening to this song, and feeling 100% content. I love this song. The lyrics are pretty much nonsense, but the happiness of the song cannot be any better to me. I remember Rocio knew I loved this song, too, and she'd sing it to me. This was back around December, 2002. She was hoping they'd play it at the concert I went to on 12.21.02, but they didn't. Still, she was so awesome at the beginning of our relationship. I could just tell that she loved me so much.
I have no regrets, by the way.
My favorite line from this song:
And we'll be back round again
Yes I'll walk in time with you old friend
And we'll find that place
That we had danced in so long ago . . .
(now playing: Shakira - Underneath Your Clothes)
Okay, now this song reminds me of the Summer of 2002. I would be standing at Dunkin Donuts after we closed, cleaning up, and this song would come on the radio, and I just would feel so, so, so alone. I dunno. I wanted someone to love me so badly. I wanted someone to feel something for me.
Rocio came soon after :-)
It's strange to have that feeling again, ya know? I never thought that I'd feel unloved again. I never thought I'd have to worry about being alone, and dying alone. I know, I'm young. I understand that. I'm just saying, I wasn't expecting this at all.
Okay, sorry Shakira. Next:
(Now playing: Dave Matthews (solo) - Stay or Leave
Okay. Wow. This song takes on a whole new meaning after a break up. I had better post the lyrics first:
Maybe different but remember
Winters warm where you and i
Kissing whiskey by the fire
With the snow outside
And when the summer comes
In the river
Swims at midnight
Shiver cold
Touch the bottom
You and I
With muddy toes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you should
It was good as good goes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you did
Wake up naked drinking coffee
Making plans to change the world
While the world is changing us
It was good good love
You used to laugh under the covers
Maybe not so often now
But the way I used to laugh with you
Was loud and hard
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you should
It was good as good goes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you did
So what to do
With the rest of the day's afternoon hey
Isn't it strange how we change
Everything we did
Did I do all that i should
That I coulda done
Remember we used to dance
And everyone wanted to be
You and me
I want to be too
What day is this
Besides the day you left me
What day is this
Besides the day you went
So what to do
With the rest of the day's afternoon hey
Well isn't it strange how we change
Everything we did
Did I do all that I could
Remember we used to dance
And everyone wanted to be you and me
I want to be too
What day is this
Besides the day you went babe
What day is this
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I mean, look at the parts I bolded, in particular. We used to laugh, not so often now. I mean, that's exactly what started happening. Rocio just was not into it anymore. I did everything that I could. I tried so hard to make her happy. She just didn't feel it anymore, ya know? And the chorus, "I want you not to go, but you should". It's like, I know that it's the right thing, but it still was the hardest thing to deal with, ya know? And then the line about "What to do with the rest of the day's afternoon" . .. I mean, it's more like, what should I do with the rest of my life? I had everything set. I had found love, I had found my future. It just didn't happen in the long run. So it's sorta back to the start.
Did I do all that I could?
-Anthony
