38 posts tagged “music”

"I can't believe that we would lie in our graves wondering if we had spent our living days well . . . "

It's impossible to know when we'll be gone, impossible to know what's going to happen to us next. Life is full of little surprises, isnt' it?  We live our lives every day, trying to do things to make it okay.  To get to the next day.  It's really easy to get into a routine.  It's really easy to stay stationary, in a way.  Lately, I've felt stationary in certain parts of my life while other parts are moving ahead wonderfully.  I just want the stationary parts to move forward too. 

The wedding planning is just about done.  It was pretty much done less than a month into the engagement.  We picked the date, the hall, DJ, pictures, etc.  All that's left is the flowers.  And then it's the little things.  Finalizing the guest list.  Picking the menu.  The easier stuff.  I'm thrilled that everything went so easily.  Just gotta wait the eight months until the wedding :-)

The rest feels like a routine.  I pretty much work for my next day off.  I look forward to Tuesdays and every other weekend, because that's when I'm off.  I'm actually looking forward to going back to school.  I feel like I need to jumpstart something.  I've been getting realllllly sick of Target lately, it's been a frustrating place to be.  I go through highs and lows all the time there, so I'll be fine soon enough.  But still, I need to finish up so I can move on and get a real job.

I cannot believe that next year is going to be my 10 year reunion.  Ten years since I graduated from high school.  It's such a strange feeling.  I'm going to be 27 in a few weeks.  Someone I work with turns 17 next week.  I hardly feel like I'm ten years older than her. 

I'm sitting here listening to Ants Marching . . . the studio cut from Under The Table and Dreaming.  I'm already up to 11 years of being a Dave Matthews Band fanatic.  We're talking about 40% of my life.  Is it any wonder that when I finally decided to get a tattoo, it would be a dmb one.  They just released a new album, one that I've been waiting with anticipation for a long time for. 

Good timing . . . a song from that album called You & Me just came on.  This song makes me feel really excited about starting my life with Heather.  It makes me excited about having a family, growing old with someone. 

You and me together
We could do anything, baby
You and me together
Yes, yes . . .

It's amazing how much this band means to me.  When LeRoi died, it felt like a family member died.  I was at the three concerts immediately following the funeral . . . the first one was just two days after.  The amazing thing is the fact that the band came out and played, even the night that Roi died.  Dave said he just wanted to be with the people one stage and with us in the audience.  Music was therapy for them, and it was for all of us at the Gorge that weekend.  Every show I've been to since, every time Dave mentions LeRoi, we all feel what Dave feels. He'll always be Stage Left.

But then the wrong and rage is over
When light comes laughing loud
Oh and the hatred turns into loving
And out of nightime the soul is found
Oh when flowers bloom in the desert
Only hope can come from that
Oh and worn down in your worry
Only love can get it right"

That's from Grey Street, July 12, 2000.  One of my absolute favorite versions that happened to pop up on shuffle. 

It's always been the lyrics for me.  I mean, the music is great.  But I don't know that much about music, and I usually just get lost in it.  On the message boards, when people are discussing Carter's drumming or Stefan or Boyd's fills, I don't really catch them.  But lyrics . . . Dave's words.  Those get me every time.  I've said before that I think Dave Matthews Band has saved my life on a few occasions.  I've been down before . . . like really low.  It's been a while since I've felt that way, but it's happened multiple times.  And it's always this music that keeps me going.  It's the Carpe Diem attitude. It's the way the songs relate to me.  It's the fact that I can put on certain songs like Song That Jane Likes or Granny, and I can't help but smile.  It just happens, no matter what's going on.  And sometimes, when you just have to listen to sad music, there's plenty of that there too.  There are a lot of lyrics that help you realize that you need to live for today, the first thing I wrote in this entry, from Lie In Our Graves, is a great example. When all is siad and done, you don't want to regret anything.  You don't want to wonder if you've lived well or not.  You need to be happy in your life. 

There used to be a very positive person inside of me.  It's still in there, but it's hidden by a lot of self-hate.  It's hidded deeeeeeep down, and it needs to come out soon.  It's gonna be tough . ..  but I really need fix what's wrong with me and fix my attitude. 

But really, life isn't bad at all. 

Hehe, certain songs can bring it all back to a good place for me. 

Like this one:

07 Spaceman

Dave Matthews Band

Radiohead release their seventh studio album today and it's only available online and you set your own price.  Will you buy the album?  Do you buy the idea?

I do plan on buying the album.  The good thing for me is that I'm not a huge radiohead fan at all.  In fact, I never really got into them.  But this way I can give them a shot without spending too much on it.  I'm gonna pay 5 dollars. 

I like the idea, as long as the band realized that they may not make a lot of money.  But they're not in it for the money, honestly.  Radiohead could sell most of their albums at 1 dollar and still be fine.

-Anthony

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The allman brothers band - melissa

Allman Brothers Band

Saturday, August 11, 2007
Current Music: Dave Matthews Band - Hunger For The Great Light
Current Mood: tired and okay

So, I was gonna go to sleep, but first I wanted to post a bit.  Things are going pretty well right now.  I was kinda down the other day, because I had this dream.  I dreamed that I met this girl who was into dmb, and we decided to go on a date.  The dream was pretty much my first date with this girl.  It went really well, too!  We hit it off right away.  And when I woke up, I was actually feeling really good.  I was content and happy, because I had found someone!  Then I snapped out of it and realized that I had no one.  It was a tough morning.

(Now playing: Dave Matthews Band - Spotlight)

 I do have friends, though.  And I'm so happy about it.  I've been going to the gym with Christine and Melissa.  It's so nice to get back to the gym, honestly.  I had stopped going because I was so tired after work, and on my days off I was busy.  But now that I'm going with others, I have more motivation.  Plus, we get along well together, so it's nice to get together chat about Target (since we all work there), and just have a good time together.  It's actually nice to just get out of the house sometimes.  James has been available to hang out less and less lately, and Pete has been MIA.  Andrew and I will be hanging out regularly again once school starts, since I'm gonna head up to Stony Brook during one of his long breaks on Tuesdays and/or Thursdays.  Honestly, the less time I'm sitting here on the computer listening to depressing music or watching depressing television shows or movies the better.

I popped into work today for a few hours to make up some time that I missed when I was off on Monday.  I used the time to completely clean and reorganize my signing area.  It's now set up exactly the way I want it to be, which I'm thankful for. 

(Now playing: The Postal Service - Sleeping In)

 I think that I've actually posted this song before.  I love it.  I don't know what it about it, but it is just an amazing song.  I've been thinking a lot about Rocio and the past lately.  Not in a depressing way or anything.  Just about certain things that happened a while back. 

  Anyway, I'm gonna go to sleep.  Enjoy this song:

03 - Sleeping In

The Postal Service

-Anthony

So, before I do anything else, I want to post an entry.  It's been two months since I've felt depressed.  I feel really down right now, though.  It's not depression, I don't think.  I'll be honest with you, I don't know why this feeling hit me.  Today has been a rough, emotional day for me.  And right now I'm listening to this, which I shouldn't be:

1-04 Some Devil

Dave Matthews

Thursday, July 26, 2007
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Shakira (featuring Wyclef) - Hips Don't Lie

  I can't STAND how happy this song makes me.  Hehehe.  I know, I'm such a dork, but this is such a very fun song, honestly.  I actually dropped the 99 cents and bought it on iTunes!  Shakira reminds me of summer 2002, right before I started to get to know Rocio, and also as we first started chatting.  She was just becoming popular.  And I liked her back then, too! 

So, it's Thursday night and I have a nice three day weekend ahead of me that I am actually VERY excited about!  Although my new job is Monday through Friday, I did have to work this past Sunday for my old job.  So, since I'm not allowed to go over 40 hours, I had to only work Monday through Thursday, which I am NOT upset about in the least!

My parents are going to Foxwoods tomorrow, which means that I actually have the day to myself.  I do, however, have a LOT of errands to run!  I have to go buy some new clothes (my clothes are TOO big for me, now!).  I have to go to the bank, I have to get a haircut, I have to do a bit of grocery shopping, and I have to go baby shopping for my friend Lenae! 

  You see, I have worked with Lenae for a long time now.  She started back when I first was at my Target, before I moved to South Dakota.  When I moved back, she was getting ready to switch to overnights, but I still saw her every day since I started working at 6.  Anyway, Lenae is pregnant, and she's moving down to North Carolina to be near the rest of her family.  She's due in just 8 weeks or so.

ANYWAY, Christine, my old team lead (in-stock team manager) is having a get-together at her house on Sunday for Lenae, since Lenae leaves on Monday.  And although Target has a rule about team leads fraternizing with Level Ones (which I used to be), since I'm not a specialist (Level Two), she invited me!  It's a bunch of us from work, plus Lenae's mom and sister.  It's gonna be so fun, and it's so awesome to be invited, ya know?

  So, tomorrow I'm gonna go get her a present from her registry. 

  I'm telling you, my life is starting to feel really good again.  Like, I haven't felt this good since last June, before the break-up!  Once I figured out my school stuff, I knew things would feel better.  But then the promotion just made things really great.  It's gotten to the point where I don't really even feel bad about not having anyone to share my life with at this moment.  I mean, sure I'd love to find someone.  But I don't get depressed about it, which is wonderful! 

  Rocio just IMd me.  I haven't talked to her since the beginning of June or so.  So, nearly two months.  But I was actually thinking about e-mailing her, seeing how things are going anyway.  So we chatted, and it went just fine.  You see, I needed to get to this kinda point in my life where I'm feeling good.  I had to get my life settled and together before I could talk to her, ya know?  But yeah, I feel great about things, so it worked out well.

:-D

Anyway, although I worked at 6 this morning and didn't sleep a lot last night, I don't know if I'll get to bed early tonight.  I mean, I want to, but whenever I'm excited about something going on the next day, it's hard for me to fall asleep! 

  I'll post another time about my new job.  Right now I'm thirsty, so I think I'm gonna go made some sugar-free Kool-Aid!

-Anthony

I love reading people's responses to yesterday's Vox Hunt about the 5 albums that changed your life.  I'm going to post mine later tonight.  But reading other responses . . . I love it.  I just love what music can do. 

LOVE it.

-Anthony

I have liked the Beach Boys for a long time.  Rocio and I saw them live about 3 years ago now, in August 2004.  Well, it was Mike Love and Bruce Johnston, not all of them, obviously.  But it was an amazing show, and I fell in love with their music after.  However, it's harder to listen to it now, because there are a lot of memories associated with the Beach Boys.  BUT, I'm going to press on because I can't let that kinda stuff get to me anymore. 

So here are two great Beach Boys song.  One you'll recognize as the song that Uncle Jesse sings to Becky at their wedding (full house reference).  The other one is a fun song called Heroes and Villains.  Enjoy!

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The Beach Boys

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The Beach Boys

06 Hey There Delilah

Plain White T's

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Time Square cant shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
But we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time that we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're the blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one's for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Okay, so I've been listening to this song a lot lately and wanted to share it with you all.  I really enjoy the Postal Service, and I thought you all would enjoy it too.  It's not the lyrics as much as the music that gets to me in this song.  I mean, the lyrics are sorta political, but that's not why I'm posting it.  Just listen and enjoy :-)

03 - Sleeping In

The Postal Service