blah blah blah

I'm not doing that well right now.  Let's see . . . I've read about 200 of the 500 pages I wanted to finish tomorrow.  I was trying to get 300 done by today and read the other 200 tomorrow. Looks like it'll be a busy reading day tomorrow.  All I have to do during the day time is go to the gym, so that'll be about an hour and a half out of my day.  If I can get up by 8:30, I can get to the gym and be home by 10:30.  Then I'd have from 10:30-3:30 to read.  5 hours is a lot of time.  Then I have to go help my mom with something in Riverhead.  Between that and supper, I'll be back around 8.  Then I can read from 8-11.  Then go to bed.  So I'll have a total of 8 hours of reading time.  That's not counting breaks, because I can't read for 8 straight hours.  I just can't do it.  But I should be okay.

But I'm not down because of that.  Tonight was my last night of class.  It ended early, and now I'm super depressed because I'll miss my classmates a lot.  It was a nice semester, feeling like I fit in and feeling very social, even if for just a few hours a night. 

Well, I do start my new job the week after next.  I'll be around Target a lot more, so I can feel social there, too, I guess.  I just don't want to feel alone this summer.  Last summer was bad enough, I need, need, need a good summer.  I'll have the Mets, DMB, and friends, so it shouldn't be terrible. 

I hope, anyway. 

Other than that, I'm just very blah right now.  I'll get better, I'm sure.  The weekend will be good at least.  I'll be working Saturday and Sunday.  It's sad that I look forward to work, just so that I can feel social. 

Anyway, I've been very up and down recently.  I need to start medicine again, which means I have to go to the doctor as soon as possible before I fall off of my mom's insurance at my birthday.

Okay, that's enough from me for now.  More soon or tomorrow.

I'm gonna watch tv or something.  I need to calm down.

-Anthony